When my hp beep, my heart race..

when my hp rings.. my heart skip a beat…

I kept waiting for his calls n messages.

i am always elated when he call or message me. I thought I will never feel this way again. The feelings were mutual so what happen to us?

I told him I will give him time and space for him to sort out his thoughts. We are still in contact. He still chats with me.

He always have my moral support in whatever decision he made. I always believed in blessing the person I loved or once loved with happiness. Being with me does not offer them the happiness they wanted, I learnt to let go and wait for the person who felt empty living in a world without me and the meaning of happiness is being with me.

He really make me feel love is in the air… I had the sweetest birthday. Nothing special happen but its really sweet. We had very sweet memories of the week. His birthday is just round the corner yet, I dun think I can do much except wish him happy birthday.

He didn’t mind me being fat and all. He really like me as I am. Yet at times he felt he can’t trust me. I understand that the reason behind. Everyone had their story. So while I am giving him time, I will try to fight for this feeling I had. I decided I want to lose weight.

Yes I had been trying for years. But I never had a target to fight for. I mean people were saying so I will look prettier. I mean come on lah. I am considered pretty now to some people. So how much more prettier does it make. But this time round I am serious I want to lose weight by dieting and exercising. I want to be a girl that is pretty enough to match him. That nobody will comment about me being fat standing next to him. (yes.. u are right he is average built)

Even if you think i am stupid at least now i got a goal to fight for i think i will do a better job. So he is just a motivation.