My Love For You Have No Holidays

That is the sweetest, most romantic and most touching words a guy say to me. hahahaha its actually sent via sms in “Thai”. Obviously I reply asking what does that means. He called to say that to me in English and explained to me that mean I will never stop loving you.

Well, the love went on vacation for years. Don’t worry for me, the love is not coming back. Hahahaha I think I am fortunate to be loved by those who really ever treasure me. But I always lost out to the ship withholding greater treasure than me.

Looking back I think I have enough memories to last this lifetime. Memories are always sweeter than reality cause you get to choose to think of the good times ignoring the bad times. If you feel like crying just think of the time you got hurt.

(tap..tap..tap…) Now my biggest concern is, what happens when my friends got married too? Life be so lonely. So need to get a guy huh? How to get a guy?

My conversation with two of my gal-friend:-

Gf1: 3 of us got bf lets go dating together.

Me: when the time come then say lah.

Gf1: who knows you might be the 1^st u know

Me: no lah my office filled with gals. Furthermore is not advisable (healthy) to find someone from office.

Gf2: this I agree k.

Me: have it ever cross your mind how to meet guys or know more guys now?

(both turn and look at me like I an alien)

Me: well I mean guys from you know when drinking, like when we in pubs etc can forget about them.

Gf1: aiyooo those type don’t bother lah wolao eh..

Me: work related, supplier lah collegues lah also under “touch-them-not” category

Gf2: true

Me: so where is the best place?

So now think and you realize there is really not much choice once u left school. Worst of all, we were told to concentrate on studies back then so u miss that opportunity how? Turn back the clock?

Now how did I get my past few ex-bf? Well friend’s friend lah, some close online friends’s friend etc. whom your friend guarantee that guy is good.

Still didn’t work out. now what other method left to try? The guy u saw at the bus stop every morning? Or the one in the same bus or train with you every morning?

You notice him around guess what? Think he noticed you too if not how come he don’t change train compartment or timing? Maybe part of him wishes to see you. Hahaha joking lah don’t go confessing to the guy on the bus please.

So till now I am clueless. So days to months, months to years .. I just realize that oh.. from my ex to now already 2years time to move on. Yet how to?

Do I miss him? One of my friend asked me. I reply, “No” actually I am not sure. Sometimes I guess I miss his presence. Seriously I wish him happiness. Being with me is not his ideal happiness. I was hurt in the process but time will heal all pain. I will be happy if people I love are happy. I know my mum wishes to see me get marry I told her if any guy walks to our home ask for my hand and you are ok with it. Just agree for me it doesn’t matter or bother me anymore. I am tired. I will learn to love the guy who loves me enough to ask for my hand. The happiness from being love.