My "LarLeng" passed away on 31st Oct 2006. Memories of days we shared came to my mind. Like this year Chinese New Year she say,"Leng, ni yue lai yue piao" As I told my friends, everyone 1st question to me was, what is piao? Piao = piao liang (pretty) that piao. Today is her crementation, I really lack the courage to face it. That she had left. My beloved auntie.
We acted more like friends then auntie and niece. When I wrote this, I suddenly had this urge to post a picture of just she and me. Only to realize that till today I had not taken a picture together with her. Well, her untimely death is not within expectation. I know she is sick but didn't realize that its so sick that she would leave us now. I feel the lost and sorrow. I was thinking if I were to start collecting pictures with all my aunties, uncles, cousin etc its quite a handful. Of cos I do have a picture of her but its not her looking her best. I want to remember her looking her best in my memories as well as in my heart.
My cousin, her daughter, consoling me instead of me, consoling her. She a decade younger then me, having to face this is more depressing. Instead she walk over to console me. I'd tried to conceal my emotion. I held back my tears. I know if I were to start crying, everyone would follow.
